MAJOR PANIC/ANXIETY ATTACK!!

I lost Steve's wedding band!! I know, I already lost a child; how could a ring cause a panic attack? I DON'T KNOW!! BUT IT HAS!! I can't find the ring any where. We were alone making tamales. I told him to take off his ring. He gave it to me. I can't remember anything more. I was having a very bad morning. My blood pressure was sky high & my head was pounding. I was not wanting to make tamales becasue I felt sick. My head was pounding. Steve & I started to spread the masa on the tamales & I felt like the masa needed something. I calle dmom to come & check it out for me. She said she was at an appointment, she would be here later. Josiah was jumping off the couches and I got upset. Steve told me to stop making the tamales. I covered the bowl with masa and left the table. Steve went outside with Josiah.

Ohhhhhh Steve is so mad, he is so beyond upsete he is not talking he is just pacing & sighing. I feel dizzy, I can't stop shaking. I feel like throwing up. I feel sick, my head hurts so bad. My arms feel itchy & my mind is a complete blur.

I was so tense, Steve told me to go pick up what we needed at wal-mart. I left. I went to walmart the store was horribly packed. I left the store I was still having a horrible headache. I went to Office Max, talked to Daniel walked out got in the car and drove home - I can't even remember what I did when I got here. Mom got here she looked at the masa & started working on the tamales with Steve. I was very dizzy & my head hurt. I could not concentrate.

I feel so sick. SOME BODY PLEASE PRAY!! I will never be able to replace that ring!! I men literally, we have no money. I had that ring custom ordered to match mine & even my wedding set is a custom order. I will never be able to save enough money to do that again!!!
OH MY GOD!!
I can't believe this
I feel so ...
I better go
I need to do something
PLEASE PRAY PLEASE
OH GOD PLEASE JUST LET MY MIND REMEMBER WHAT I DID WITH THAT RING!!
PLEASE PRAY -
I know it's just a ring but I feel awful
I feel like I am going to throw up.
Oh Holy Spirit please help me find that ring.
STEVE HAS NEVER TAKEN THAT RING OFF HIS FINGER SINCE MARCH 5, 2005 NEVER!!
I am so stupid! why did I make him take it off!!
Steve is so upset. I can't even beging to tell you how upset he is.
He isn't talking at all. he is as white as snow.
he keeps pacing and sighing.
he won't say anything!!
he jsut won't stop looking around every inch of this house
he just went throughall the trash piece by piece.
I am breaking out in hives.
He just sat down inthe living room and turned off the lights.
I wish he would at least yell at me or tell me how stupid & irresponsible I am.

DO YOU KNOW?

any one out there wanna fill me on how I can change the pictures on the side bar of my blog. Like I want to update the pictures.
If any one can instruct me on how to do this I WILL FOREVER BE SO HAPPILY THANKFUL TO YOU!!! :)

Josh put these in for us whenever he set us up on the blog. I am pretty sure he did not pay anything to add these pic's (I have tried to change them by clicking on them but nothing happens & whenever I click the add image icon it puts the pics in my post not on the side bar)

This is Josh's senior year & he is so busy - he has not had a chance to even get Beth her wedding pic's yet so I know he will not have time to come and show me or do it for me.

BUT if it costs money then I am fine with the pictures we have up :) I just thought since I have really nice pic's we took at the pumpkin patch & the kids are older now too!!

So if any one has any ideas(on how to do this) let me know!!!

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