Wednesday, December 3, 2008

just noticed...

I just noticed, a prayer request posted . He is in "FULL CLEAN MODE"... ... ...
That is how he deals with stuff and while I enjoy a clean house, I do not enjoy watching my sweet heart worry like this. It is 11:30 p.m. we got home from bible study and found some 'not good news' on our front door. He has managed to clean my kitchen spotless, clean the bathroom, he is washing and hanging, cleaned our bedroom and I am not sure what else is clean!

I just heard our front door open- it is so cold outside and he just stepped out onto our front porch.

Dear Lord, I pray that YOU give Steve the courage that he needs right now. We trust you will see us through. You are our Faithful Provider.

So, these thoughts keep racing through my mind... ... ...
-Are we being punished?
-I'm tired!
-When will this drought/curse/ punishment end?
-People must be tired of praying for us or hearing us ask for prayer.
- I hope I can sell a lot of breakfast burritos tomorrow.
-I hope we get a lot of orders for Christmas tamales.
- I don't want mom to worry.
-Thank God for Blogging (*sigh)
- The bibles promises are true.
-So what are You trying to teach us God?
- Show me how to fix what I have done wrong.
- I am sorry!
- I love you Lord!
- Miss you 'Lijah
-Beth's wedding is at such a hard financial time for us right now.
- I'm glad she is happy
-Tony is sweet
-Moriah is precious
- Steve is taking out trash from where? I do not know!
- I wish I could sleep 'no worries'
- Miss Kay
- It's cold
-Don't want people who read this to pitty us
- What else do I do?
- how much longer?
- when this is passed, what will we have learned?
- God is in control.
-It's CHRISTMAS season...
- Don't cry!
- Can't cry...
- Josiah is precious.
- WHY?
- I wish I could laugh.
- we need a miracle!
- do we?
- TEACH me the lesson Lord!
- learn it Marie!!!
- learn what?!?!
- how?
- what is it that I have done wrong?
- Steve just came into the kitchen - he is at the sink
- I wanna throw up
- God
- where are we?
- I know you are faithful & constant in our lives, so then where are we?
- I feel sick
-I need to trust
-I need to relax
- I can't
- tomorrow is a brand new day
- why can't i find a job?
- why can't Steve find a job?
- we need jobs!
- Ugggggh!
- I'm mad!!!!!!!!!!!
-I have a head ache!
- Galatians says 'whatever things are good, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are praise worthy, whatever things are noble, whatever things are of good report think on these things!
- AMEN!!!
- some how that feels better 'anxiety that was building up tight on my neck and shoulders is going away :)
- I want us to sleep in peace tonight
- oh yeah - I just gave some one the verse that says ' He will keep in perfect peace those whose mind is stayed on thee'
- Steve just walked out to the back door
- Molly is sweet :)
- Our class we taught tonight; was good!
- Love to hear Josiah say "thank you Jesus!" (all excited and his face all smiles) I love to hear that!
- Steve just came back in
- We serve a BIG GOD!
- Jesus loves me (AND YOU TOO!!!)
- headache going away
- love my new friends from the blog
- Lord please saturate Steve with your perfect peace. Let your presence rest upon him. Your word says 'your burden is light' give him rest. Sustain him, Strengthen Him, encourage him like only You can do! Please give us both a good night of rest as we trust in you.
- Need to do something
- Have no energy
- "THANK YOU JESUS!" (said it just like 'Si does) :) 3x :)
- Heavenly Father, I thank you for all that you are in our lives. I praise your name for you are a GREAT GOD!
Thank you for every blessing you pour out! Thank you for every door that shuts and every door that opens. Thank you for YOUR perfect peace! WE are troubled but YOU are HERE with us. You are in our midst. I can feel the PEACE raining down. My husband loves you- trusts you- believes in you and depends on your strength! I thank you for him in my life and because he is a wonderful dad. He is a hard worker and most of all because we have each other. I thank you because when we got the 'bad' news - He took me into our room and we prayed together. You are an excellent God and all you do is praiseworthy. I know you will see us through. Forgive my anxious thoughts. Bless those who are in need of you - that they might receive your perfect peace.
- Steve is back in the kitchen. washing something else
- He just hugged me :) 'told me he loves me'
- He just walked back out.
- i am soooooooooooooooo tired.
- I hope Steve comes to bed tonight.
- He never sleeps when he is stressed
- Tomorrow is a brand new day
- I'm tired
- Don't wanna ruin Beth's wedding
- Don't want mom to worry
- i'm tired
- its 12:32
- I've been blogging for an entire hour!
- done!


  1. Just checking in on before I go to bed and found your latest entry. So sad for you and all that you are going through. I can see your deep trust in God through your pain. God made us and that includes the emotions that we have so I don't think it comes as any surprise to Him to see/hear us question Him and what He is doing in our lives. The problem comes if we shake our fist in God's face and walk away. I believe that He wants us to question and cry out to Him because it is only when we are at the end of ourselves that He can step in. I do not know what He has planned for you and your precious family - I wish I could take away some of the hurt and say that everything will work out okay. Unfortunately I do not have that power but I do know the One who holds you in the palm of His hand. And I know that you know Him to so keep on trusting and seeking Him.
    "What then shall we say to these things: If God is for us, who is against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? Who will bring a charge against God's elect: God is the one who justifies, who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us.
    Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ...
    But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, not things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:31-39
    Will be praying for you my "blogging" friend,

  2. Marie - Job too appeared to have lost everything and everyone. Keep your faith. One of the things I enjoy most about being a Christian is that I do not need to ask 'Why?' God knows and I need to rely on Him. So much easier to say when things are going well. Praying.....

  3. Oh Marie.... I'm sorry you are having a rough time...and I'm sorry to hear Steve is struggling!! Please know that we NEVER get tired of praying for you and your keep on blogging, girlfriend!!

  4. "Along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them." Isaiah 42:16

    Marie, I am praying for you and Steve, asking the Lord to get you through this rough place, one day at a time. I am praying for jobs to break through for both of you and for your hearts to be protected as they continue to heal. You are a sweet helpmate to him during this time. Trust in the Lord, encourage Steve and thank him for the wonderful clean house that his distress produces.:) Gotta love that!
    Praying for all that you need during this time to be provided for you.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.