Thursday, July 2, 2009


just feeling blah, sorta draggin and heavy hearted. It hasn't even been 1 year since we had Elijah nad now Dad, Ugh! I talked to my dad last night he had been worried about us. I am having these real wierd moments of PANIC about who's next!!

AND this economy is way out of wack too! Steve still can't find a job and this is fruit harvest season - we have all kinds of people picking fruit YET NO JOB for HIM!

I believe in faith but I think my faith is running on fumes right now.

our welfare check was cut as well as so many other things here in California, and we were just starting to feel like we were climbing out of this hole. IN MY HEART I AM SCREAMING 'I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO MOVE'

It has been one storm after another, after another and then they just keep comming!!

I know we are blessed but our landlord can only wait so long!!! and every 30 days a new rent is due. we have been giving him weekley payment s to try to catch up but it seem like we are sinking in quick sand.

I told Steve last night, "you know I just want to give up" and he looked at me and said "okay we give up and do what?"

I dont know but I sure am tired of always living on the verge of losing it all!!

I SURE DO NEED LOTS OF PRAYERS & hugs would sure be nice. Steve asked me to take the kids to my sisters so he could have some time alone. HE IS SURE MISSING HIS DADDY.


  1. I am so sorry for all that you are dealing with right now. God is faithful and you will pull through! **hugs from ny**

  2. Isaiah 43:2 (The Message)

    Isaiah 43
    When You're Between a Rock and a Hard Place
    1-4 But now, God's Message, the God who made you in the first place, Jacob,
    the One who got you started, Israel:
    "Don't be afraid, I've redeemed you.
    I've called your name. You're mine.
    When you're in over your head, I'll be there with you.
    When you're in rough waters, you will not go down.
    When you're between a rock and a hard place,
    it won't be a dead end—
    Because I am God, your personal God,
    The Holy of Israel, your Savior.
    I paid a huge price for you:
    all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in!
    That's how much you mean to me!
    That's how much I love you!
    I'd sell off the whole world to get you back,
    trade the creation just for you.

  3. Look back, He has never let us down...He has always comforted us...HE IS FAITHFUL, trust and rest in YOUR GOD, HE will make a way. Love ya!