Saturday, May 24, 2008


I know! I know!! we just seem to have dissapeared for a while but we are not gone! WE STILL ARE IN MUCH NEED OF YOUR SUPPORT LOVE & PRAYERS! We went to our appointment Tuesday and were so very disapointed to find we still don't have "THE MIRACLE " we so desperatley want. We left the office and were silent for most of the 35 minute drive home.
HOME... ... well as things turn out we are still at my moms. FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON the people had guarateed us to get the apartment changed their minds and now we are in a bit of a messy situation. I remember once reading Susie's blog and she quoted "why can't we just have one crisis at a time" I so feel like that. I have had so very many questions in my mind latley - I do not doubkt my walk with the Lord I just doublt that I'm doing things right any more. WE READ in the bible that He will never give us more than we can handle... RIGHT NOW I FEEL PRETTY WIEGHED DOWN.

JUST SO YOU KNOW there is no internet service at my moms and in my "FAT, SWOLLEN & still growing condition taking a little trip to the city library to blog is not too high on the list of things I can do right now BUT ALSO I MISS BLOGGING SO VERY BAD! I MISS ALL THE COMMENTS AND JUST BEING ABLE TO communicate. For some reason we feel so good when we are able to blog and see how many hits our precious baby boy's site is getting. I know many of you don't post a comment but just seeing the counter change lifts our spirits. STEVE & I are hoping to order internet service if we end up staying at my moms much longer.

WE DESPERATLY NEED YOUR PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!! The hospital called me this Wednesday and told me to get everything in order. GET THINGS IN ORDER - get things in order to birth and bury my baby boy - who we planned to watch him grow up with his big brother and sister. The baby me & beth were supposed to push in the strollers together and watch meet the mile stones together!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been "losing it" alot latley!!!!! just can't keep the tears from rolling and my emotions are just so raging. I have been very quiet most of the time.


  1. Hi Marie,

    It is so good to check in on you and find your post here!! I have missed you girl, in case you hadn't noticed. I am praying for you and am sorry the apartment fell through for you. And your appointment, I know the miracle you are speaking of, I am praying for this too. Marie, go ahead and let the tears flow whenever you need to release the pain and disappointment inside you. You are doing the best that you can and the Lord collects your tears. He is right there with you.
    I love you guys and will continue praying for your needs to be met.

    Love and Hugs, Laurie in Ca.

  2. yes ma'am. been there, done that. love you heaps marie! i was telling someone about you today, and i was beginning to worry about you. take each day as it comes, and if staying with your family is an option, perhaps you can stay there until you've had your time with elijah? i don't want to offer unsolicited advice - but i know that having family as such a hard time as "waiting" before and after - sometimes its really welcomed. but good luck either way. praying for you.

  3. So I'm a lurker I geuss, I came from Susie's blog. I have to tell you that your courage and just general brave-ness amazes me! I want to be more like you! You handle thigns so matter-o-factly, and it is amazing that with all these crazy things happening to you, you still remain calm. At least, you seem pretty calm to me! If I was in your shoes, I... Well, I don't really know what I'd do, but I doubt that it would be anywhere near what you are doing! I am only fifteen, by the way, and I'm commenting because I figure that it's the least I can do. Even though we are in differint situations, um, VERY differint situations, I want you to know that I admire your bravery. Peace!

  4. praying for you here in Canada...

  5. Thinking of you often and praying for you daily in Oklahoma precious family.

  6. I have been wondering about you and how you have been doing. Thanks for the update. While I hardly ever comment. I am thinking of you all and praying for you.


  7. Praying for each of you. I hope that you are able to enjoy each moment left before you see Elijah. I also pray for many moments and days after he's born to get to know this beautiful, perfect son the Lord has given you. Praying for strength and peace and hope for you all.

  8. Hi Maria,

    Gosh I miss you being here, sigh!! It is Wednesday afternoon, the 28th and I just wanted to stop by and let you know I am praying for you guys and thinking about you all day long. Asking the Lord to keep your hope in Him as Elijah's birthday draws near. I will be glad to see another post:)
    Love you girl and say Hi to Steve for me. Praying for all that you guys need right now.

    Love, Laurie in Ca.

  9. Please know we are still praying! Thank you for the update so we will know more specifically how to pray.

    Sending much love and many prayers...


  10. Praying for you these days. Do you happen to read Great encouragement from a mother walking your journey as well.