Wednesday, April 9, 2008

NEED TO VENT!!!

Just got back from bible study. Went to check on Joshua's blog and caught up on some of the blogs I hadn't had a chance to read. I AM SCARED I MIGHT NOT BE WITH THE RIGHT Doctor!!!!! first of all, last month at my appointment She told me it was better to have him natural and today I read on Susie's blog exactly what I was afraid of If Elijah has this "waterballoon like sac" hanging outside his head holding his brain DUH wouldn't you think it will bust during labor !!!!!! well my doctor said it was the best thing. Yesturday we went to another appointment and I asked her for an MRI and she said NO! you dont want to see that, if I thought it would make you feel better I would but you don;t want to see all that " it's not good news" and she walked out!!!! SO IS MY PRECIOUS CHILDS LIFE IN THE HANDS OF A DOCTOR WHO DOESN'T VALUE HIS life simply because he was formed wih his brain outside of his head?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I always thought somthing bad could happen to him if he came through the birth canal!!! WHY DID'NT SHE TELL ME!!!! I AM JUST FURIOUS!!! PLEASE HELP ME PRAY THAT THE LORD CHANGE HER! MAKE ME MORE BOLD WHEN I GO IN TO SEE THE DOCTOR IN TWO WEEKS!! GIVE STEVE THE BOLDNESS TO SPEAK UP FOR OUR BABY BOY!!! AND THAT GOD ALL MIGHTY MAKE THIS WOMAN SEE THE VALUE OF LIFE!!! MY BABY boy is just so beautiful he is so precious! we just got our 4D ultrasound and DVD (will add picture tomorrow)yesturday his heart is perfectly strong all his organs are functioning. HE LOOKS LIKE HE IS SLEEPING!!! IT IS HARD enough to know that God's will for my sons life may not be for him to be here with me but rather that the Our Sovereign Lord may desire for Elijah's life to begin in Heaven. NOW WHO Does this woman think she is to make these types of desicions for me?! and based on what!?!?! that my sons "malformed" (in her words) head makes him worthless to her!!! I am sorry lady but my GOD says that HE (GOD) formd him (ELijah)that HE made all the delicate parts of his body...Psalms 139:13-17 Then why does she think she can possibly be so careless with my sons life!?!?!?!!!???! THE WORD OF GOD PROMISES ME & ELIJAH THAT NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!!!! AND I INTEND TO STAND ON THAT PROMISE!!! GOD ALMIGHTY HELP ME AND MAY ALL THE PEOPLE OF GOD WHO PRAY PLEASE LIFT THIS SITUATION UP TO THE THRONE OF GOD!!! I am more than glad to accept the perfect will of MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!! BUT TO LET THIS WOMAN TAKE MY SONS LIFE FOR GRANTED I THINK NOT!!!! PLEASE WE NEED SO MUCH PRAYER PLEASE PASS THIS BLOGSITE TO ALL WHO WILL PRAY!!!!!!! elijahnathanieldouglas.blogspot.com

4 comments:

  1. Hi, I found your site on Susie's site. I will pray for you and have added your link onto my blog. God Bless you!!

    Angela

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  2. Praise God for His earthly angels! Words cannot express the pain in my heart because of what you guys are going through. I don't understand but God does. He knew Jesus was going to die. But there was a plan beyond our understanding. I know that our Creator and Sustainer understands your pain. I pray He brings comfort and peace to your heart and Stevie's. And as the days grow closer that you would hang on to our Savior, He understands the fear and anxiousness of waiting and I know that He will hold and guide you every second of the day. I love you my precious friend!

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  3. Hi, I found your site through Susie's site also. (although I don't know them personally, I found them threw a freind)
    I am a labor and delivery nurse (RN) an although I am not an expert, I would think you are right about having Elijah vaginally. I was shocked on Susie's site that they let her deliver Vaginally, and thought maybe it was because she was in New Zealand and not the US. Can you switch doctors or at least get a second opinion? I know that it won't change the overall outcome, but you need a doctor who values your son's life and your choice to as a Christian woman, make sure your son gets to have as much of a life as possible. Is your doctor a Christian too? Maybe that is where you need to start. Pray that God will help you find a doctor that agrees with your beliefs on life. It can't hurt to get a second opinion. You are the mom and your gut instint is usually right. Don't reget staying with someone you are not happy with. If she is treating Elijah's life like it doesnt' matter now, do you really want that person delivering him, or in the worst case senerio, if he God forbid, doesn't make it, is that who you want at you bedside helping you through your tremendous greif? Or even talking negative, if it turns out positive.
    Anyways, that is just my opinion, hun, and I am willing to answer any labor and delivery questions you might have.( if I can) Feel free to email me any time.
    Mashelhall@comcast.net
    And I am praying for your perfect, precious son and your wonderful family.
    Mashel

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  4. Hi, I found your site through Susie's site also. (although I don't know them personally, I found them threw a freind)
    I am a labor and delivery nurse (RN) an although I am not an expert, I would think you are right about having Elijah vaginally. I was shocked on Susie's site that they let her deliver Vaginally, and thought maybe it was because she was in New Zealand and not the US. Can you switch doctors or at least get a second opinion? I know that it won't change the overall outcome, but you need a doctor who values your son's life and your choice to as a Christian woman, make sure your son gets to have as much of a life as possible. Is your doctor a Christian too? Maybe that is where you need to start. Pray that God will help you find a doctor that agrees with your beliefs on life. It can't hurt to get a second opinion. You are the mom and your gut instint is usually right. Don't reget staying with someone you are not happy with. If she is treating Elijah's life like it doesnt' matter now, do you really want that person delivering him, or in the worst case senerio, if he God forbid, doesn't make it, is that who you want at you bedside helping you through your tremendous greif? Or even talking negative, if it turns out positive.
    Anyways, that is just my opinion, hun, and I am willing to answer any labor and delivery questions you might have.( if I can) Feel free to email me any time.
    Mashelhall@comcast.net
    And I am praying for your perfect, precious son and your wonderful family.
    Mashel

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