Thursday, April 24, 2008

It's a strange thing...

It is so unexplainable when all of the sudden out of the blue after what I thought was a pretty good day then all of the sudden I FEEL LIKE I WAS JUST HIT WITH A MACK TRUCK!

Cindy & Chris came by and we had a pretty good visit. Josiah worshiped with his microphone that Cindy bought him and he made us each hold some object in our hand as if it were a microphone and we each had to sing along. Josiah kept a close eye on Chris and if he stopped singing he stop singing and told Chris," sing". Steve recorded him on the camcorder.
They left at about 6:30 and we stayed outside and watched Josiah ride his tricycle. Daddy recorded that too! Especially the newest trick, (he knows how to pedal backwards)!!

SO then why when we came in to make dinner, I all of the sudden was overtaken by a deep unexplainable SADNESS!! I mean like REAL real deep sorrow and the thoughts that came over me... ... like the fact that we won't have those kind of moments with Elijah (watching him ride a tricycle and be a little clown like Josiah).

I feel so bad for Steve I don't think he knows what to tell me anymore.


  1. As everyone has told me....let your feelings out, dont shake them just feel, and give them over to God.
    Praying for you tongiht. For peace..

  2. I agree with Jessica here completely. The road you are walking right now is not an easy one and your feelings are so real and true. Praying that God gives you what you need for each moment of the day and for Steve too. Men just want to fix things and make it okay and this is one that is out of his hands. Praying that God carries you both during this time of uncertainty and gives you peace.

    Love, Laurie in So. Ca.

  3. It is okay to feel however you feel. There is no right or wrong way to do this. Just know that you don't have to do it alone! I am praying for you on this journey!

    Much love,