We went to church this morning and I did'nt get a chance to post a comment before we left. After church we went to moms for lunch. She made Beef Soup/ Cocido/ Caldo (it can be called different things) Whatever it's called IT IS DELICIOUS!!! and it was a bit breezy today and a little on the chilly side so It sure Hit The Spot!
Kayla had a friend (Julie) over for the afternoon. They played outside at moms BUT WE think Josiah has a little bit of a crush on her!! YES I KNOW HE's just 2 but he gets all red and giddy and stares at her as he says her name over and over for no particular reason(it's so funny)! So I think he sorta stold her company a bit! THANK HEAVEN FOR NAPS! The girls finally got to play uninterrupted:)for a few hours then before we knew it it was time for evening service! so we headed back to church. I was so exausted! BUT, AS SOON AS WORSHIP STARTED I felt renewed I enjoy being in his presence so much and it was just great to have the kids worshiping right beside daddy & I! The study tonight was great too! It is just about 10:00p.m and the kids are both in bed (back to school tomorrow). Our day over all was a very pleasant one! going to close early tonight cuz I'm a bit tired. THANX TO OUR 264 who visited our page today!! :) Please keep our little girl in your prayers. She goes back home tomorrow! I know she will be fine! just pray with us that the presence of the Holy Spirit be ever present in her life ever hour of her days and that HIS PEACE KEEP HER SECURE IN HIM AND that HIS will be done in her life!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
A perfect ending 2 a deliciously lazy day!
Cindy came at 2:45 (when I snuck my early shower)! then Josiah woke up he was happy to see nina (cindy). Cindy & I sat on the couches and talked and listened to an awesome worship CD she made me!!! and painted our toe nails pink!! she brought me a bottle of moonlight path lotion from bath and body. Mmmm! I smell so good! Then she ran to taco bell for bean burritos to tie us over till everyone got here for dinner. We sat outside with Josiah and ate our burritos and watched him play.
Kayla & Steve got here at 5:30. Josiah was just ecstatic to see sister! He misses her so much all week long. They played and played and played like there was no tomorrow. Beth came with mom so thanks to BETH for the pictures in this blog.(we don't have a digital camera or a camera phone so that's why we don't have too many pictures of us but hopefully we can get a camera real soon I really hope to get one before Elijah gets here).
We ate pizza for dinner because that's what we eat on a lazy day! No cooking tonight!! the kids ate outside in the back yard. They just couldn't get enough of each other!! they spent allot of ALONE time together NO ADULTS allowed! Kayla played with Josiah in his room and then they played in her room. She came out in high heels and he came out with one of sisters hair pieces(its a ponytail with LONG braids that she likes to put over her pony's) imagine the sight of my little rascal with DREADS!! HA! HA! HA! I didn't get a picture of that :( but we did get one of them in base ball caps :) when they came out the second time. Mom went a little PAPARAZZI on us with her picture phone!! she took pictures of her 2 prego's (me& beth). 
BUT WE REALLY APPRECIATE THAT THEY TOOK THE PIC'S especially since 
Kayla's home!! :) Mom & Beth went home at about 9:00 and Cindy left at 9:30 right after
BUT WE REALLY APPRECIATE THAT THEY TOOK THE PIC'S especially since Kayla's home!! :) Mom & Beth went home at about 9:00 and Cindy left at 9:30 right afterwe watched Elijah's ultrasound video from the 8th. Steve was real tired so he went to bed but me & he kids stayed in the living room listening to the worship CD BOY WAS THE PRESENCE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT THICK IN OUR LIVING ROOM we should all enjoy moments together with the Lord!! like this! Mmm how sweet it is to have Jesus' love and peace in our home! my Elijah is safe inside me enjoying the worship giving a tap every so often as I rub my tummy with one hand. my baby girl is all cuddled up on the couch with her brother in their jammies and they are raising their hands and singing along as they get groggy & mommy rubs their legs!what a special & perfect way to end such a wonderful day! I put Josiah in bed at 10:00 but Kayla asked if she could stay on the couch listening to the music while I wrote. She said, "mommy I can feel His peace and love on me" and smiled!
LAZY DAY'S are'nt they great
Just having one of those deliciously lazy days :)!!!
IT' BEEN A GOOD ONE so far.
Waiting for Steve to get home with Kayla (she's home this weekend)!!!!!!!!!!
wish she could be with us all the time but we are glad for the times we do have her.
Mom & Cindy are going to be comming over for dinner later... ... ... (Cindy just got here)
YIPPY!!!!!! I get to sneak an early shower well not so early it's 2:45!! I fell asleep with Josiah :)
But overall it's been a nice quiet day! BUT IF I WANT A SHOWER I BETTER GET GOING... ... MORE LATER
IT' BEEN A GOOD ONE so far.
Waiting for Steve to get home with Kayla (she's home this weekend)!!!!!!!!!!
wish she could be with us all the time but we are glad for the times we do have her.
Mom & Cindy are going to be comming over for dinner later... ... ... (Cindy just got here)
YIPPY!!!!!! I get to sneak an early shower well not so early it's 2:45!! I fell asleep with Josiah :)
But overall it's been a nice quiet day! BUT IF I WANT A SHOWER I BETTER GET GOING... ... MORE LATER
Friday, April 18, 2008
BIG DAY (yesturday)
Yesterday, was Steve's last day off. We spent the morning cleaning house and mowing both front and back lawns and doing laundry. (felt so good to feel normal again). Josiah was at school from 8:00 to 12:00 so we were able to get allot done(no interruptions)!! We picked up Josiah went over to moms, ate a quick bite and then we left to the funeral home to finalize the arrangements. Thank God Jonathan(my brother, Josiah's nino) was their for lunch. Josiah loves to be a BIG BOY around nino so when we left he was eating at the table next to nino.(NO TEARS :) ) just a big "BYE MOMMY!" (SUCH A BIG BOY)
Needless to say it was very heavy on the hearts. We are so blessed to have the peace and strength of God. As we walked up to the door, waves of emotions swept over me and through me. Steve was so very quiet but holding my hand tightly as we walked through the doors. The funeral director greeted us and took us upstairs (a pregnant lady walking up a flight of stairs, heavy hearted isn't very easy). The hardest parts were: signing the forms to pick up baby and embalming(chills up my arms and spine as I write) and giving all the information to fill out the death certificate and the information for obituary. (SORRY if that was more info than you wanted to read I'm just being honest). All those forms, are things I never knew had to be done for any funeral preparation. I can honestly say that THIS was not crossing my mind, the day Steve and I stood in front of the church; looking into each others eyes saying our "FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSES"(i know it's not a word but you get what I'm saying). As we continued signing documents and answering questions the waves of emotions that raged inside me were insurmountable and at times I felt like I was suffocating and drowning all at once. Suddenly this verse came to mind and PEACE SWEPT OVER ME AND I WAS ABLE TO CONTINUE. the verse is found in Isaiah 43:2 and it says: [When you go through the deep waters. I will be with you. When you go through the river of difficulties you will not drown when you pass through the flames you will not be burned the flames will not consume you.] WHAT A PROMISE!!!
We were able to go through the entire process with an overwhelming sense of peace through the heaviness of hearts we carried, even as we walked over to the little baby caskets (Ugghg! THAT WAS HARD) holding each others hands tight. I couldn't help it I had to reach in and feel the tiny satin white pillow and the material lining that tiny little thing (making sure it was soft)... it was. I immediately pulled my hand back (not wanting to go too deep into that emotion). One thing is for certain that I am glad we are able to take plenty of time to do all this. Cindy came over to be with us last night(Just gotta love the sacrifices this girl makes!)
STEVE & I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU CINDY, SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS WILL EVER BE ABLE TO EXPRESS!!!!
I was telling her that the next order of business is the paper work and legalities at the cemetery and ordering the flowers... DEFINITELY NOT DOING THAT THIS WEEK but maybe next week. IT IS JUST TOO MUCH. We got home and were exhausted!! but too tired to go to bed, if that makes sense. Not much makes sense these days anyways.
Before Cindy came Beth and I were sitting on the couch talking and it hurt me so bad to see her little face turn red as tears filled her eyes. She said that listening to all the funeral arrangements made her realize how real this really is. It hurt so bad because she is my baby sister. 12 years younger than me. For one of the first times in our lives I can't take away her pain. TOO HARD! Beth & I are so close not more than Minn but just different. Beth & I spent more time at home together before getting married and SHE'S THE BABY not only that but she is right about to turn 4 months pregnant with her first baby and we were so excited because we were going to have babies only 3 months apart ALL the plans we were making... SUDDENLY THE PLANNING CHANGED. We talked for along time last night and I thought it was so sweet for her to not take any of her calls for the whole time we were talking. I was crying and telling her that I'm worried about her during the funeral because of her pregnancy. She was crying saying to me, "I'm worried about you seeing my tummy during that time, is it going to hurt your heart too much to see me, should I stay away?" We had such a good talk and cry together just like sisters do. Mom & I were talking last night about how much of a blessing YOU OUR "blog family" has become to us. So many people writing and sharing your love prayers and encouraging thoughts, even though you may have never experienced what we are facing and yet being so courageous to write us to share your support with us. Then the many others who have walked the painful path we are traveling in one way or another and you are there for us too!!!
STILL BELIEVING FOR A MIRACLE, WHATEVER HE CHOOSES WE WILL ACCEPT WITH PEACE, PAIN AND LOVE!!! The joy of knowing the peace of God, is our strength! NOT TO SAY THAT IT DOESN'T HURT but just saying we can feel His strength and ALL YOUR PRAYERS ARE A HUGE SUPPORT TO US.
Needless to say it was very heavy on the hearts. We are so blessed to have the peace and strength of God. As we walked up to the door, waves of emotions swept over me and through me. Steve was so very quiet but holding my hand tightly as we walked through the doors. The funeral director greeted us and took us upstairs (a pregnant lady walking up a flight of stairs, heavy hearted isn't very easy). The hardest parts were: signing the forms to pick up baby and embalming(chills up my arms and spine as I write) and giving all the information to fill out the death certificate and the information for obituary. (SORRY if that was more info than you wanted to read I'm just being honest). All those forms, are things I never knew had to be done for any funeral preparation. I can honestly say that THIS was not crossing my mind, the day Steve and I stood in front of the church; looking into each others eyes saying our "FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSES"(i know it's not a word but you get what I'm saying). As we continued signing documents and answering questions the waves of emotions that raged inside me were insurmountable and at times I felt like I was suffocating and drowning all at once. Suddenly this verse came to mind and PEACE SWEPT OVER ME AND I WAS ABLE TO CONTINUE. the verse is found in Isaiah 43:2 and it says: [When you go through the deep waters. I will be with you. When you go through the river of difficulties you will not drown when you pass through the flames you will not be burned the flames will not consume you.] WHAT A PROMISE!!!
We were able to go through the entire process with an overwhelming sense of peace through the heaviness of hearts we carried, even as we walked over to the little baby caskets (Ugghg! THAT WAS HARD) holding each others hands tight. I couldn't help it I had to reach in and feel the tiny satin white pillow and the material lining that tiny little thing (making sure it was soft)... it was. I immediately pulled my hand back (not wanting to go too deep into that emotion). One thing is for certain that I am glad we are able to take plenty of time to do all this. Cindy came over to be with us last night(Just gotta love the sacrifices this girl makes!)
STEVE & I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU CINDY, SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS WILL EVER BE ABLE TO EXPRESS!!!!
I was telling her that the next order of business is the paper work and legalities at the cemetery and ordering the flowers... DEFINITELY NOT DOING THAT THIS WEEK but maybe next week. IT IS JUST TOO MUCH. We got home and were exhausted!! but too tired to go to bed, if that makes sense. Not much makes sense these days anyways.
Before Cindy came Beth and I were sitting on the couch talking and it hurt me so bad to see her little face turn red as tears filled her eyes. She said that listening to all the funeral arrangements made her realize how real this really is. It hurt so bad because she is my baby sister. 12 years younger than me. For one of the first times in our lives I can't take away her pain. TOO HARD! Beth & I are so close not more than Minn but just different. Beth & I spent more time at home together before getting married and SHE'S THE BABY not only that but she is right about to turn 4 months pregnant with her first baby and we were so excited because we were going to have babies only 3 months apart ALL the plans we were making... SUDDENLY THE PLANNING CHANGED. We talked for along time last night and I thought it was so sweet for her to not take any of her calls for the whole time we were talking. I was crying and telling her that I'm worried about her during the funeral because of her pregnancy. She was crying saying to me, "I'm worried about you seeing my tummy during that time, is it going to hurt your heart too much to see me, should I stay away?" We had such a good talk and cry together just like sisters do. Mom & I were talking last night about how much of a blessing YOU OUR "blog family" has become to us. So many people writing and sharing your love prayers and encouraging thoughts, even though you may have never experienced what we are facing and yet being so courageous to write us to share your support with us. Then the many others who have walked the painful path we are traveling in one way or another and you are there for us too!!!
STILL BELIEVING FOR A MIRACLE, WHATEVER HE CHOOSES WE WILL ACCEPT WITH PEACE, PAIN AND LOVE!!! The joy of knowing the peace of God, is our strength! NOT TO SAY THAT IT DOESN'T HURT but just saying we can feel His strength and ALL YOUR PRAYERS ARE A HUGE SUPPORT TO US.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
From Elijiah's Daddy
My son Elijah, Tonight at church, GOD'S HOLY presants was felt Deep into my body. First with worship, then his PROMISING WORD. The TINGLING in my body that I felt during worshipI knew the holyspirit was all over me, no matter how hard life could get, If GOD is in your life, he will Assure your spirit to just relax, and LET HIM GUIDE YOU. I have alot going on in my life right now, I'm trying to do it myself. I know that HIS WORD say's to give it to him, but my flesh keep's interfering. But the HOLYSPIRIT assured me tonight that I'M HERE GIVE IT TO ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU GUIDANCE TO WHAT YOUR TO DO!!! And during worship I gave it all to him, and at that moment a song BLESSED MY HEART, It said "YOUR GREAT AND YOU DO MIRACLE'S." My flesh made forget that HE gave a MIRACLE OF LIFE. All of our family and friend's want GOD to give us miracle and let Elijiah stay with us here on earth until JESUS come's back for us. WE NEED TO REMEMBER ELIJIAH IS ALREADY A MIRACLE FROM GOD, because without GOD we wouldn't have ELIJIAH in our live's today. With the diagnoses that ELIJIAH has, were BLESSED to get to love him now and HOPE and PRAY with FAITH that GOD let's us keep him for a little while or heal's his head "IN THE NAME OF JESUS". What ever GOD does we will give ALL HONOR AND GLORY to GOD!!! If GOD desides to take ELIJIAH home to HEAVEN, we know that the Dr. will deliver him to us here, but GOD WILL DELIVER ELIJIAH TO US WHEN WE GET TO HEAVEN!!! The Dr's say's ELIJIAH Is deaf and blind, but we know he hear's us TALK, PLAY, AND PRAY FOR HIM, but we know that he's not blind, THE WORD OF GOD SAY'S "I ONCE WAS BLIND BUT NOW I SEE," ELIJIAH'S ear's might not be-able to hear, BUT WE KNOW HIS HEART AND SPIRIT HEAR'S US. GOD gave ELIJIAH to us this way not to punish us, BUT TO SHOW THE HAND OF GOD MOVE IN PEOPLE'S LIVE'S. So we believe that ELIJIAH NATHANIEL DOUGLAS has a MISSION HERE ON EARTH FIRST, TO TOUCH PEOPLE'S LIVE'S ALL AROUND THE WORLD!! He's bringing families and friend's closer to each other, BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS THAT PEOPLE COME TO KNOW HIS LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!! Because If this situation was in somebody else's life that didn't know JESUS, It would probly destroy families. But we have JESUS in our live's, Im not saying It's not hard, sad, or It doesn't hurt to know that we are going to lose our "PRECIOUS BOY." BUT GOD IS IN CONTROL, AND WE HAVE TO TRUST THE LORD!!!
THE DOUGLAS FAMILY WANT'S TO THANK EVERYONE FOR
THIER PRAYER'S AND COMITS, IT'S A BLESSING!!!!
MAY BLESS YOU!!!
THE DOUGLAS FAMILY WANT'S TO THANK EVERYONE FOR
THIER PRAYER'S AND COMITS, IT'S A BLESSING!!!!
MAY BLESS YOU!!!
A Message from Elijah & Daddy (for the coment from Missykings!!!)
WHEN DADDY & I READ THE COMMENT IT GAVE US A VERY BAD STOMACHE ACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF YOU WANT TO ROOT FOR A WINNING TEAM, Daddy & I SAY ROOT FOR THE CARDINALS!
Smart Boy & A SPORTS FANATIC!! just like daddy
HI All! ITS ME, ELIJAH:
I know, I know IT'S 2:58 in the morning but i'm just so excited to tell you all... and finally mommy let me come to the computer to write!
WELL yesterday mommy & I went to prayer. Josiah and Daddy walked to the little league park around the corner from our house. I must not tell a lie "I WANTED TO GO TO THE GAME". On the way home from prayer night mommy rubbed her tummy & said, "Elijah your so still tonight". I heard her call daddy and say we were dropping off grandma and daddy's voice was so excited he said "BABE WE WATCHED 2 GAMES!!" and then mommy started asking all kinds of stuff about Josiah (boring stuff like did he take a bath, is he asleep, what time did he fall asleep) SHE didn't even let poor daddy finish telling her about THE GAME'S they watched. She just said, "OK i'll be home in a minute". Mommy noticed, that I kept bouncing, knocking and tappping and she said, "boy you sure woke up all of the sudden".
We walked in the house and Daddy started telling US about the games!!! Boy was I excited they watched the GIANTS vs. A's and then the RED SOX vs. Orioles! then mommy said she wanted to go to bed. I started to tap & knock and ... ... SHE WENT TO BED! Daddy came in right behind us and then they started talking about all the yummy food at the ballpark and I was just giving daddy all kinds of HI-5's boy what an exciting night they had and then Daddy said WE are going to go again next time. I was so excited I kept jumping and jumping! and then Mommy turned around (away from daddy) so I couldn't even finish giving him HI-5's. BUT i am so excited about going to the next game cuz i'm into baseball just like my daddy & Josiah (JUST PRAY MOMMY DOESN'T RUIN IT FOR US BOYS!!)
p.s did you notice the colors of my writing... ... "GO CARDINALS!!!" that's our team the "ST.LOUIS CARDINALS" (mommy's & Kayla's are the SF Giants and my nino & nina's team too) BUT NOT ME, I'M JUST LIKE DADDY!!!
mommy says she's tired and it's 3:09 so i guess i'll talk to you all later! "GO CARDINAL'S!!!"
I know, I know IT'S 2:58 in the morning but i'm just so excited to tell you all... and finally mommy let me come to the computer to write!
WELL yesterday mommy & I went to prayer. Josiah and Daddy walked to the little league park around the corner from our house. I must not tell a lie "I WANTED TO GO TO THE GAME". On the way home from prayer night mommy rubbed her tummy & said, "Elijah your so still tonight". I heard her call daddy and say we were dropping off grandma and daddy's voice was so excited he said "BABE WE WATCHED 2 GAMES!!" and then mommy started asking all kinds of stuff about Josiah (boring stuff like did he take a bath, is he asleep, what time did he fall asleep) SHE didn't even let poor daddy finish telling her about THE GAME'S they watched. She just said, "OK i'll be home in a minute". Mommy noticed, that I kept bouncing, knocking and tappping and she said, "boy you sure woke up all of the sudden".
We walked in the house and Daddy started telling US about the games!!! Boy was I excited they watched the GIANTS vs. A's and then the RED SOX vs. Orioles! then mommy said she wanted to go to bed. I started to tap & knock and ... ... SHE WENT TO BED! Daddy came in right behind us and then they started talking about all the yummy food at the ballpark and I was just giving daddy all kinds of HI-5's boy what an exciting night they had and then Daddy said WE are going to go again next time. I was so excited I kept jumping and jumping! and then Mommy turned around (away from daddy) so I couldn't even finish giving him HI-5's. BUT i am so excited about going to the next game cuz i'm into baseball just like my daddy & Josiah (JUST PRAY MOMMY DOESN'T RUIN IT FOR US BOYS!!)
p.s did you notice the colors of my writing... ... "GO CARDINALS!!!" that's our team the "ST.LOUIS CARDINALS" (mommy's & Kayla's are the SF Giants and my nino & nina's team too) BUT NOT ME, I'M JUST LIKE DADDY!!!
mommy says she's tired and it's 3:09 so i guess i'll talk to you all later! "GO CARDINAL'S!!!"
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
HIS FAITHFULNESS!
THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND ENCOURAGEMENT!!!
(SO GREAT TO HEAR FROM YOU ELVA XOXOXOXOX) NOT THAT IT IS BETTER TO HEAR FROM ELVA THAN ANYONE ELSE just that I hadn't talked to her at all since this whole ordeal started.
Today was such a better day than yesturday. PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS!!!
I told you all about the ordeal with the funeral director yesturday... I was able to have a long talk with Cindy and she was able to help me sort out all my thoughts and TODAY Steve & I decided to make one more try to call another funeral place turns out they ARE WAY WAY CHEAPER THAN THE ONE WE SPOKE TO YESTURDAY like half the price!!! GOD IS SO FAITHFUL!!!
I spoke to the acctual owner of the funeral parlor and he said they don't charge for all the extras when it is for babies they just charge what it will cost them to pay out so it is like half the quote we had gotten yesturday so now we won't have to cut out the church services (wake) and also be able to get the cute marker(head stone) WE HAVE AN APPOINTMENT with him onThursday morning. GOD IS SO GOOD!!
We know that it might seem a bit gloomy to have to read about this and I appologize BUT IT IS WAHT WE ARE GOING THROUGH! and NO WE ARE NOT LOSING ARE FAITH! & IT IS SO GOOD TO KNOW WE HAVE THE SUPPORT OF OUR PASTORS!!!
We hope you can understand the immense amount of love we have for our precious little love; that we would want to make his goodbye just as precious and meaningful as we possibly can.
ON ANOTHER NOTE:
Elijah is still verymuch enjoying when I read yourcomments and he especially liked the rays of sunshine sent to him from Florida!!! I've gotta say that he really seems to enjoy the sunshine... whenever I take Josiah outside to play and I sit in the sunshine Elijah will pop up into the direction where the sun is comming from!!!
I better get going, I'm on my way to prayer. AND JOSIAH AND DADDY ARE ANXIOUS TO GET RID OF ME because when mommys not home daddy gets to give Josiah icecream and do all kinds of fun stuff I'm sure mommy wouldn't be to happy with watching!!!! and I heard Steve telling Josiah that as soon as mommy goes to prayer we are going to have a lot of fun!! He's planning on taking him around the corner to watch the baseballgame at the park so I better get going now CUZ JOSIAH KEEPS SAYING "BYE MOM, BYE, BYE GO NOW"
so talk to you all later :)
(SO GREAT TO HEAR FROM YOU ELVA XOXOXOXOX) NOT THAT IT IS BETTER TO HEAR FROM ELVA THAN ANYONE ELSE just that I hadn't talked to her at all since this whole ordeal started.
Today was such a better day than yesturday. PRAISE THE LORD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS!!!
I told you all about the ordeal with the funeral director yesturday... I was able to have a long talk with Cindy and she was able to help me sort out all my thoughts and TODAY Steve & I decided to make one more try to call another funeral place turns out they ARE WAY WAY CHEAPER THAN THE ONE WE SPOKE TO YESTURDAY like half the price!!! GOD IS SO FAITHFUL!!!
I spoke to the acctual owner of the funeral parlor and he said they don't charge for all the extras when it is for babies they just charge what it will cost them to pay out so it is like half the quote we had gotten yesturday so now we won't have to cut out the church services (wake) and also be able to get the cute marker(head stone) WE HAVE AN APPOINTMENT with him onThursday morning. GOD IS SO GOOD!!
We know that it might seem a bit gloomy to have to read about this and I appologize BUT IT IS WAHT WE ARE GOING THROUGH! and NO WE ARE NOT LOSING ARE FAITH! & IT IS SO GOOD TO KNOW WE HAVE THE SUPPORT OF OUR PASTORS!!!
We hope you can understand the immense amount of love we have for our precious little love; that we would want to make his goodbye just as precious and meaningful as we possibly can.
ON ANOTHER NOTE:
Elijah is still verymuch enjoying when I read yourcomments and he especially liked the rays of sunshine sent to him from Florida!!! I've gotta say that he really seems to enjoy the sunshine... whenever I take Josiah outside to play and I sit in the sunshine Elijah will pop up into the direction where the sun is comming from!!!
I better get going, I'm on my way to prayer. AND JOSIAH AND DADDY ARE ANXIOUS TO GET RID OF ME because when mommys not home daddy gets to give Josiah icecream and do all kinds of fun stuff I'm sure mommy wouldn't be to happy with watching!!!! and I heard Steve telling Josiah that as soon as mommy goes to prayer we are going to have a lot of fun!! He's planning on taking him around the corner to watch the baseballgame at the park so I better get going now CUZ JOSIAH KEEPS SAYING "BYE MOM, BYE, BYE GO NOW"
so talk to you all later :)
Monday, April 14, 2008
It's Monday
Started out as a pretty calm morning :) Josiah came into our room at 7:30 today and got very entertained by a pile of laundry on our floor. Steve woke up to a quiet noise and he says it was Josiah putting socks on his hands and feet. Mom & Beth dropped by in the morning for a few minutes and then Steve & I took Josiah to school. We came back and I was feeling very strong and confident so I got my "Angel Babies" folder out and took them to my room and opened up my window to let the beautiful fresh air blow in as I made my calls. I called Pastor first to check with him on a few details, then called the funeral director. I don't know why I thought it wouldn't affect me, like if the beautiful breeze blowing through my bedroom window was going to BLOW AWAY any SAD EMOTIONS!!! Boy was I WRONG.
there went the rest of my day. I got allot of details and much needed information in order to prepare for saying our precious good bye. I was being so brave. Had it all together while I was on the phone. By the time I got through telling Steve all the details I was a MESS. I wasn't even able to pull it together enough to put Josiah down for his nap. Steve took Josiah into the room and layed with him. I went to the couch and cried... that was at 1:30 and Steve went to work at 2:45. I was still crying when he came to tell me he was leaving. That was one hour ago and I'm still a mess. I feel numb and disconnected. NOT TO MENTION HOW BAD I FEEL THAT STEVE LEFT TO WORK AND I WAS STILL IN A MOMENT.
I just feel like I can't connect. Like my emotions don't work right. I don't know, just feel so frustrated. Josiah is still asleep. I wish I could be more in control. I can't even express myself to the Lord right now. AND these thought keeps spinning around in my head...
"are we really going through this? are we going to make it? how does Steve really feel? is he tired of me always crying or being sad? Am I ever going to be really happy again? how is this going to affect Josiah?" TOO MANY MORE TOO KEEP WRITING. Sometimes I lay awake at night trying to bring back to my memory the days when I was so happy, frivolous and ignorant to all the pain in the world. BUT IT NEVER COMES BACK, NOT EVEN IN MY MEMORY.
ENOUGH SAID!!!
there went the rest of my day. I got allot of details and much needed information in order to prepare for saying our precious good bye. I was being so brave. Had it all together while I was on the phone. By the time I got through telling Steve all the details I was a MESS. I wasn't even able to pull it together enough to put Josiah down for his nap. Steve took Josiah into the room and layed with him. I went to the couch and cried... that was at 1:30 and Steve went to work at 2:45. I was still crying when he came to tell me he was leaving. That was one hour ago and I'm still a mess. I feel numb and disconnected. NOT TO MENTION HOW BAD I FEEL THAT STEVE LEFT TO WORK AND I WAS STILL IN A MOMENT.
I just feel like I can't connect. Like my emotions don't work right. I don't know, just feel so frustrated. Josiah is still asleep. I wish I could be more in control. I can't even express myself to the Lord right now. AND these thought keeps spinning around in my head...
"are we really going through this? are we going to make it? how does Steve really feel? is he tired of me always crying or being sad? Am I ever going to be really happy again? how is this going to affect Josiah?" TOO MANY MORE TOO KEEP WRITING. Sometimes I lay awake at night trying to bring back to my memory the days when I was so happy, frivolous and ignorant to all the pain in the world. BUT IT NEVER COMES BACK, NOT EVEN IN MY MEMORY.
ENOUGH SAID!!!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
THE POWER OF PRAYER
PRAYER IS SO POWERFUL!!!!!!!
We had a big scare! Yesterday night after a long day we came home & I wasn't feeling well. I just kept telling Steve, "I just don't feel right". WE prayed and went to bed after getting things ready for "JUST IN CASE" something happens in the middle of the night. Thank You Lord " I GOT A REAL GOOD NIGHT OF SLEEP!!! Got up this morning and went to church. after church went over to Ben & Minn's (my sister & bro. in law) house for lunch. Steve left to work at 3:00p.m and I stayed at Minn's. We had such an awesome time of prayer & talking about the greatness of God. At 5:30 we all got ready to go to church. (I wasn't feeling well) BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING CUZ I WAS TRYING TO BE BRAVE OR MAKE BELIEVE I WASN'T FEELING ANYTHING (pretty dumb huh?). Mom & Yay(my21 year old baby sister) got there and about 15 minutes into church I told mom. "I'm not feeling well". then I waited a few more minutes and about 2 to 3 songs into worship and I looked at her and said, "I'm having contractions, I'm going to call Steve at work" so I walked out and she & Beth (Yay - same person just another one of her many nick names) followed me. I called Steve and when i walked back into church, Minerva (my older sister minn) had all the deacons wives and two deacons and Sister Joanne their in the kitchen to pray for me. WE ALL PRAYED AND HE HEARD OUR CRY!!!! I AM HOME AND ELIJAH IS SAFE INSIDE WITH NO SIGNS OF COMING!!!!!!
I am very certain that I was experiencing labor but the people of God united in one accord and the Lord heard our supplication. I JUST LOVE WHAT BROTHER DOUG SPOKE AS HE BEGAN TO PRAY. HE SAID, "IN THE NAME OF JESUS THIS BABY NEEDS TO GO FULL TERM" It was such an awesome experience to feel the POWER OF PRAYER HAPPEN SO INSTANTANEOUS!!!! I could hear in the backround " Pastor leading the church to pray as they continued to worship!!!! ALL HONOR & GLORY TO MY LORD JESUS!!! I want as much time as my Sovereign Lord will give me with my baby boy!!!!! WE just keep praying that we will be given the miracle of bringing him home with us before we send him home!!! Steve & I are so blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people; OUR FAMILY YOU ARE ALL SUCH A BLESSING... ... Minerva said she would stay at church with Josiah unless I called her to come. Kito-Ben (josiah's nickname for my 1st nephew) and Josh (my godson & nephew #2) took Josiah to Walmart with them after church to buy his pull ups. and then took him home and gave him a bath. Cindy & Chris left church right with mom & yay and came right up to the hospital. CINDY IS MY BESTEST, BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD & Chris is her 15 year old son. Cindy is acctually more like a sister to me & she's my spiritual baby( more on that later). I can not imagine going through this without her (EVERYONE NEEDS A CINDY IN YOUR LIFE)!!!!!!! The day we found out about Elijah's cele was a Wednesday, so when we called mom that we were on our way home to tell her, I just expected Beth(baby sister) and her to be there cuz I thought for sure Ben & Minn would be at church cause they teach the kids at church. THEY CAME! and so did my brother Jonathan who lives one hour away. Reyna (my sister in law came too) Later that night at our house Cindy & Chris came over too!! SHE DROVE 30 minutes all the way to my house to be by my side. My brother Johnny who lives in Colorado wrote us a beautiful email and encouraged us to keep looking forward and to not give UP!!! I also had a very nice phone conversation with him the other day(on his b-day) and he just listened and then asked some very important questions. JUST SHOWED SO MUCH CARE & CONCERN!! WE ARE JUST SO BLESSED BY OUR FAMILY!!! and I've got to say how much of a HUGE BLESSING OUR BLOG FAMILY HAS BECOME!!!! I told Steve tonight at the hospital, "I wish we had a lap top cuz then I would post a prayer request on the blog" (thank GOD for his HOLY SPIRIT) blog not needed to reach the throne of GRACE, MERCY & HEALING!!!!! PRAYER REALLY IS POWERFUL!!!!
We had a big scare! Yesterday night after a long day we came home & I wasn't feeling well. I just kept telling Steve, "I just don't feel right". WE prayed and went to bed after getting things ready for "JUST IN CASE" something happens in the middle of the night. Thank You Lord " I GOT A REAL GOOD NIGHT OF SLEEP!!! Got up this morning and went to church. after church went over to Ben & Minn's (my sister & bro. in law) house for lunch. Steve left to work at 3:00p.m and I stayed at Minn's. We had such an awesome time of prayer & talking about the greatness of God. At 5:30 we all got ready to go to church. (I wasn't feeling well) BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING CUZ I WAS TRYING TO BE BRAVE OR MAKE BELIEVE I WASN'T FEELING ANYTHING (pretty dumb huh?). Mom & Yay(my21 year old baby sister) got there and about 15 minutes into church I told mom. "I'm not feeling well". then I waited a few more minutes and about 2 to 3 songs into worship and I looked at her and said, "I'm having contractions, I'm going to call Steve at work" so I walked out and she & Beth (Yay - same person just another one of her many nick names) followed me. I called Steve and when i walked back into church, Minerva (my older sister minn) had all the deacons wives and two deacons and Sister Joanne their in the kitchen to pray for me. WE ALL PRAYED AND HE HEARD OUR CRY!!!! I AM HOME AND ELIJAH IS SAFE INSIDE WITH NO SIGNS OF COMING!!!!!!
I am very certain that I was experiencing labor but the people of God united in one accord and the Lord heard our supplication. I JUST LOVE WHAT BROTHER DOUG SPOKE AS HE BEGAN TO PRAY. HE SAID, "IN THE NAME OF JESUS THIS BABY NEEDS TO GO FULL TERM" It was such an awesome experience to feel the POWER OF PRAYER HAPPEN SO INSTANTANEOUS!!!! I could hear in the backround " Pastor leading the church to pray as they continued to worship!!!! ALL HONOR & GLORY TO MY LORD JESUS!!! I want as much time as my Sovereign Lord will give me with my baby boy!!!!! WE just keep praying that we will be given the miracle of bringing him home with us before we send him home!!! Steve & I are so blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people; OUR FAMILY YOU ARE ALL SUCH A BLESSING... ... Minerva said she would stay at church with Josiah unless I called her to come. Kito-Ben (josiah's nickname for my 1st nephew) and Josh (my godson & nephew #2) took Josiah to Walmart with them after church to buy his pull ups. and then took him home and gave him a bath. Cindy & Chris left church right with mom & yay and came right up to the hospital. CINDY IS MY BESTEST, BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD & Chris is her 15 year old son. Cindy is acctually more like a sister to me & she's my spiritual baby( more on that later). I can not imagine going through this without her (EVERYONE NEEDS A CINDY IN YOUR LIFE)!!!!!!! The day we found out about Elijah's cele was a Wednesday, so when we called mom that we were on our way home to tell her, I just expected Beth(baby sister) and her to be there cuz I thought for sure Ben & Minn would be at church cause they teach the kids at church. THEY CAME! and so did my brother Jonathan who lives one hour away. Reyna (my sister in law came too) Later that night at our house Cindy & Chris came over too!! SHE DROVE 30 minutes all the way to my house to be by my side. My brother Johnny who lives in Colorado wrote us a beautiful email and encouraged us to keep looking forward and to not give UP!!! I also had a very nice phone conversation with him the other day(on his b-day) and he just listened and then asked some very important questions. JUST SHOWED SO MUCH CARE & CONCERN!! WE ARE JUST SO BLESSED BY OUR FAMILY!!! and I've got to say how much of a HUGE BLESSING OUR BLOG FAMILY HAS BECOME!!!! I told Steve tonight at the hospital, "I wish we had a lap top cuz then I would post a prayer request on the blog" (thank GOD for his HOLY SPIRIT) blog not needed to reach the throne of GRACE, MERCY & HEALING!!!!! PRAYER REALLY IS POWERFUL!!!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
MEET ELIJAH!
HI ALL I AM ELIJAH NATHANIEL DOUGLAS!!!! just wanted to introduce my self & let all you wonderful people take a peek at me, inside mommy's tummy! I just thought you all should know that even if medical science says my brain does'nt function normally, I tend to think it works very well because you see I am very smart!!!! I know when people at church are talking about me or praying for me. I can prove this because if you ask my mommy she will tell you that as soon as people start talking about me I start bouncing around inside her. The other day I even played a cool trick on my big brother Josiah. You see he likes to come into bed with Daddy, Mommy & I EVERY MORNING at 6:30 or 7:00 and he likes to hug mommy and jump on daddy and he says "YEE HAW COWBOY" and then he will crawl back on mommy puts his mouth on mommy's tummy & yell LIJAH! (thats what he calls me) Lijah a you doing? Wake UP LIJAH!! and I am like UH! No mommy & I just fell asleep about 3hours ago!! SO HERE COMES THE FUNNY I DID.... Right as he leaned on mommys tummy and rubbed it I GAVE HIM A BIG HEE YAH!! and you should of just seen him he jumped back so far he just about fell off the bed and Mommy just started laughing so hard she could hardly stop laughing to tell Daddy what happened, AND JOSIAH BOY HE WAS SURE SURPRISED and he said in a very serious voice "LIJAH MOMMY, LIJAH MOVING?" pretty cool trick don't you think?!? AND every time my sister Kayla is here and mommy is combing her hair she rubs mommy's tummy and I JUST LOVE TO TAP AT HER! She was acctually the first person to feel me tap besides mommy!!! and On Easter Sunday while we were praying for the offering whenever Kayla leaned into mommy I gave her a big HI-5 but I got her on the cheek!!SO YOU SEE, I THINK MY BRAIN IS A SMART ONE!!! Whenever mommy& daddy get on the computer to talk about me, to all of you I like to hear them read the comments out loud. Mommy just rubs her tummy (ME) and says okay Elijah I know you can here!! AND I JUST KEEP ON bouncing around and around. I HOPE YOU ALL LIKE MY PICTURE!! AND I JUST WANT TO SAY TO ALL OF YOU HOW GLAD I AM TO KNOW YOU ARE ALL HERE WITH US!!
GOOD NIGHT! FROM A VERY SMART BOY!
SEE MY FOOT!!!
TGIF!!!!
I started out unable to sleep last night. I just kept tossing & turning. My mind would not stop thinking of all sorts of things. I was thinking about all the things that need to get done. Mostly I kept wondering if I am going to be able to bring Elijah home or not. I know I posted a crazy "VENT" yesturday I'm not sure if I was over hormaonal due to just the pregnancy or if it was everything all together. BUT I know I was a little over the top!!!! I was able to talk to Lori at Angel Babies and tell her how I was feeling then I talked to my cousin Priscilla (her & her husband Matt had to go through alot with IVF in order to get their little miracles). After I talked to her I felt much better about everything and I am more focused on organizing my thoughts and writing everything I want to talk to the doctor about next Tuesday. I read a new comment from Sallie in NC I just gotta say how GREAT it was to read "YOUR PERFECT LITTLE BOY" Itjust blessed my heart so much because I THINK HE IS PERFECT JUST THE WAY HE IS, THE WAY HE WAS FORMED BY THE MASTERS HANDS!!! Steve & I know about his encephalocele we just choose to focus on everything else about him that is precious and all the wonderful complex way he was made so PERFECT!!!! THANKS SALLIE!!! I really better get going now Josiah is fully dressed and ready to go to school. He already had breakfast and now he is starting to get into things!!!!! Today is Steve's day off and he looks like he wants to get going and I'm not even dressed yet!!! Sallie YOU BLESSED ME!!!!!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
STRENGTH FOR TODAY
Hi all first of all let me say how encouraging it has been to read the comments that have come in from people who have found us through "Joshua's Story". AND IF ANYONE INTERESTED IN POSTING A COMMENT, JUST CLICK ON COMMENT AT BOTTOM OF POSTING YOU MAY DO IT ANONYMOUS IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO LOG IN.
We have been having it rough but it is so evident to see the hand of GOD touchin us ever so lovingly and tenderly through out every moment. WE KNOW WE ARE NOT ALONE!!! On Monday we were having a rough day and Steve ended up in the emergency room with chest pains (thank God it turned out to be a bruised & swollen sternum and not anyhting more serious) Well this woman stopped me as I walked out of the bathroom and we began to talk she is a christian and I told her about Elijah she said she would pray. I went back into the room with Steve and after about 15minutes I heard a page over the loud speaker for Steve Douglas to call the hospital operator. I thought for sure it was my mom (she was watching Josiah). I went to the phone and called the operator and she said "please come to the front desk" so I went over and the woman stands up and smiles as she says, "I have a gift for you from Jesus (A BOOK) & a scripture for you & your husband" she said "and your husband will be well maybe this is the reason you came to the hospital today".
WOW IS GOD JUST SO AMAZING OR WHAT?!?! NEVER LETTING US FACE A MOMENT ALONE!
Today I just got back from school & Steve was getting ready to go to work but went to check the mail first. WE got the bank statement from Elijah's burial/memorial fund and found that some one made a deposit!!! also we got a greeting card in the mail (JUST AT THE MOMENT WE NEEDED IT)!!!! AND last night a couple from church blessed us with a gas card!!! HOW GREAT A GOD WE SERVE AND ALL THE PEOPLE AROUND US SHOWING US SO MUCH LOVE!!! WE JUST GOTTA SAY "ALL YOU PEOPLE ARE AWESOME!!!!!" Also my Tia Janie in Texas along with her church continue to send us their Love!!!! My Tia sends me cards and very encouraging magazines and her churches prayer cards have truely been a strength to us when we NEED it the most. The ladies at our church have put in place a prayer tree where someone prays for us daily WE CAN REALLY FEEL THE PRAYERS!!! AS I SIT HERE TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE I MUST SAY THAT THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS OUR GRATTITUDE FOR ALL THE LOVE WE HAVE EXPERIENCED THROUGH YOU ALL!!!
We have been having it rough but it is so evident to see the hand of GOD touchin us ever so lovingly and tenderly through out every moment. WE KNOW WE ARE NOT ALONE!!! On Monday we were having a rough day and Steve ended up in the emergency room with chest pains (thank God it turned out to be a bruised & swollen sternum and not anyhting more serious) Well this woman stopped me as I walked out of the bathroom and we began to talk she is a christian and I told her about Elijah she said she would pray. I went back into the room with Steve and after about 15minutes I heard a page over the loud speaker for Steve Douglas to call the hospital operator. I thought for sure it was my mom (she was watching Josiah). I went to the phone and called the operator and she said "please come to the front desk" so I went over and the woman stands up and smiles as she says, "I have a gift for you from Jesus (A BOOK) & a scripture for you & your husband" she said "and your husband will be well maybe this is the reason you came to the hospital today".
WOW IS GOD JUST SO AMAZING OR WHAT?!?! NEVER LETTING US FACE A MOMENT ALONE!
Today I just got back from school & Steve was getting ready to go to work but went to check the mail first. WE got the bank statement from Elijah's burial/memorial fund and found that some one made a deposit!!! also we got a greeting card in the mail (JUST AT THE MOMENT WE NEEDED IT)!!!! AND last night a couple from church blessed us with a gas card!!! HOW GREAT A GOD WE SERVE AND ALL THE PEOPLE AROUND US SHOWING US SO MUCH LOVE!!! WE JUST GOTTA SAY "ALL YOU PEOPLE ARE AWESOME!!!!!" Also my Tia Janie in Texas along with her church continue to send us their Love!!!! My Tia sends me cards and very encouraging magazines and her churches prayer cards have truely been a strength to us when we NEED it the most. The ladies at our church have put in place a prayer tree where someone prays for us daily WE CAN REALLY FEEL THE PRAYERS!!! AS I SIT HERE TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY FACE I MUST SAY THAT THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS OUR GRATTITUDE FOR ALL THE LOVE WE HAVE EXPERIENCED THROUGH YOU ALL!!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
NEED TO VENT!!!
Just got back from bible study. Went to check on Joshua's blog and caught up on some of the blogs I hadn't had a chance to read. I AM SCARED I MIGHT NOT BE WITH THE RIGHT Doctor!!!!! first of all, last month at my appointment She told me it was better to have him natural and today I read on Susie's blog exactly what I was afraid of If Elijah has this "waterballoon like sac" hanging outside his head holding his brain DUH wouldn't you think it will bust during labor !!!!!! well my doctor said it was the best thing. Yesturday we went to another appointment and I asked her for an MRI and she said NO! you dont want to see that, if I thought it would make you feel better I would but you don;t want to see all that " it's not good news" and she walked out!!!! SO IS MY PRECIOUS CHILDS LIFE IN THE HANDS OF A DOCTOR WHO DOESN'T VALUE HIS life simply because he was formed wih his brain outside of his head?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I always thought somthing bad could happen to him if he came through the birth canal!!! WHY DID'NT SHE TELL ME!!!! I AM JUST FURIOUS!!! PLEASE HELP ME PRAY THAT THE LORD CHANGE HER! MAKE ME MORE BOLD WHEN I GO IN TO SEE THE DOCTOR IN TWO WEEKS!! GIVE STEVE THE BOLDNESS TO SPEAK UP FOR OUR BABY BOY!!! AND THAT GOD ALL MIGHTY MAKE THIS WOMAN SEE THE VALUE OF LIFE!!! MY BABY boy is just so beautiful he is so precious! we just got our 4D ultrasound and DVD (will add picture tomorrow)yesturday his heart is perfectly strong all his organs are functioning. HE LOOKS LIKE HE IS SLEEPING!!! IT IS HARD enough to know that God's will for my sons life may not be for him to be here with me but rather that the Our Sovereign Lord may desire for Elijah's life to begin in Heaven. NOW WHO Does this woman think she is to make these types of desicions for me?! and based on what!?!?! that my sons "malformed" (in her words) head makes him worthless to her!!! I am sorry lady but my GOD says that HE (GOD) formd him (ELijah)that HE made all the delicate parts of his body...Psalms 139:13-17 Then why does she think she can possibly be so careless with my sons life!?!?!?!!!???! THE WORD OF GOD PROMISES ME & ELIJAH THAT NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!!!! AND I INTEND TO STAND ON THAT PROMISE!!! GOD ALMIGHTY HELP ME AND MAY ALL THE PEOPLE OF GOD WHO PRAY PLEASE LIFT THIS SITUATION UP TO THE THRONE OF GOD!!! I am more than glad to accept the perfect will of MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!! BUT TO LET THIS WOMAN TAKE MY SONS LIFE FOR GRANTED I THINK NOT!!!! PLEASE WE NEED SO MUCH PRAYER PLEASE PASS THIS BLOGSITE TO ALL WHO WILL PRAY!!!!!!! elijahnathanieldouglas.blogspot.com
WE ARE BACK!!
we had been offline due to technical difficulties BUT WE ARE BACK NOW!!!! These are some of the photagraphers favorite pic's taken on SAT. MARCH 22nd!! "Family- Pregnancy Picture day
". We met Estee our "Angel Babies Photagrapher" at Woodward Park in Fresno. Josiah was much more interested in the rocks to climb and mimicking the quacking ducks swimming in the water than taking pictures!! Kayla was most helpful constantly trying to persuade brother to PLEASE pose for a picture!All in all we had a great day the weather was very pleasant and on our way home we stopped at "Boomers Adventure Park" I wished I had taken a camera!! Steve & Kayla drove the race cars as Josiah & I cheered them on! Josiah's favorite activity of the day was the spider stompper where he had to stomp on the red flashing light beneath his feet. Needless to say when we got home he took a very long nap. Kayla & I enjoyed some "GIRL'S TIME"!!! I hope you all enjoy these pictures as much as we have. Let us know which is YOUR FAVORITE!!!!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
A note From Elijah
Daddy & Mommy met with Pastor Marty & Sister Mona today. They talked about ME!!!
one of my favorite things I heard pastor say was; GOD HAS ALREADY DONE THE MIRACLE "THE MIRACLE OF LIFE" (My Life) YES!!! I AM VERY MUCH ALIVE!! just ask my mom and she'll tell you how many times I keep her up a night and whenever they pray for me at church, ask the people who put their hands on mommys tummy I KICK THEM TOO!!! like my Tia Cindy and the other day in the car I kicked my cousin Ben while at the swap meet.
I LOVED TO HEAR PASTOR MARTY TALK ABOUT MY LIFE; THE LIFE GOD HAS GIVEN ME TO LIVE STARTING THE MOMENT I WAS FORMED!!!
I can feel so much love! Love from my Mema (Grandma Uyoa: Mommy's mom) and my Tia's & especially My Nina Berba & Nino Ben. ALL MY COUSINS TOO! I have lots of them. MY big sister Kayla loves me too. She pats mommy's tummy alot and she tells me she loves me! She says I'm safe in mommy's tummy. My Big brother Josiah invites me to play races with him on the bike. You should see how funny mommy looks trying to waddle, I mean race next to Josiah!
Josiah also gives me milkshake and offers me whatever he eats!! I think he's a cool big brother.
I also made a special friend at Church: On sundays at church Pastor always says " Shake some ones hand & tell them you love them or God Bless You" well the other Sunday in church Kaeloha he's my friend. I know he is because he shook mommy's hand and then (ME) he patted her tummy!!!! He acknowleged me too!!!! He is my new friend! I know I have lots of people who love me and are praying for me. I have a very special friend who was born just like I am going to be; he already went to be with Jesus!!! I know he is enjoying being with Jesus!!!!
My cousin Josh made me this page so mommy & daddy can share with every one how things are doing and share how big I'm getting. DID YOU ALL SEE MY FEET?!?! they look just like Kayla's, Daddy's & Josiah's.
one of my favorite things I heard pastor say was; GOD HAS ALREADY DONE THE MIRACLE "THE MIRACLE OF LIFE" (My Life) YES!!! I AM VERY MUCH ALIVE!! just ask my mom and she'll tell you how many times I keep her up a night and whenever they pray for me at church, ask the people who put their hands on mommys tummy I KICK THEM TOO!!! like my Tia Cindy and the other day in the car I kicked my cousin Ben while at the swap meet.
I LOVED TO HEAR PASTOR MARTY TALK ABOUT MY LIFE; THE LIFE GOD HAS GIVEN ME TO LIVE STARTING THE MOMENT I WAS FORMED!!!
I can feel so much love! Love from my Mema (Grandma Uyoa: Mommy's mom) and my Tia's & especially My Nina Berba & Nino Ben. ALL MY COUSINS TOO! I have lots of them. MY big sister Kayla loves me too. She pats mommy's tummy alot and she tells me she loves me! She says I'm safe in mommy's tummy. My Big brother Josiah invites me to play races with him on the bike. You should see how funny mommy looks trying to waddle, I mean race next to Josiah!
Josiah also gives me milkshake and offers me whatever he eats!! I think he's a cool big brother.
I also made a special friend at Church: On sundays at church Pastor always says " Shake some ones hand & tell them you love them or God Bless You" well the other Sunday in church Kaeloha he's my friend. I know he is because he shook mommy's hand and then (ME) he patted her tummy!!!! He acknowleged me too!!!! He is my new friend! I know I have lots of people who love me and are praying for me. I have a very special friend who was born just like I am going to be; he already went to be with Jesus!!! I know he is enjoying being with Jesus!!!!
My cousin Josh made me this page so mommy & daddy can share with every one how things are doing and share how big I'm getting. DID YOU ALL SEE MY FEET?!?! they look just like Kayla's, Daddy's & Josiah's.
February 13, 2008 we were told that our little blessing due to be born in late spring to early summer would not be with us for a lifetime, but rather for only a few short minutes with a very slight possibility of hours and even less chance of living days. The doctors said we could choose to terminate the pregnancy because there is no chance of survival they said “There is no hope or chance for survival. That he could be born stillborn. Steve said “that’s the doctors report, but who’s report will WE believe” Together we chose for our response to be worship. “BLESSED BE THE NAME; HE GIVES AND TAKES AWAY” OUR HOPE IS IN THE LORD THE ETERNAL HOPE OF GLORY!!!!
WE have chosen to name him:
Elijah Nathaniel Douglas.
Elijah means “God is my strength” and Nathaniel means “God Gave”
Steve and I are certain that GOD will see us through. WE ARE NOT certain how we will feel every day as we go through this but WE ARE CERTAIN that GOD IS WITH US!! HE WILL GIVE US THE STRENGTH AND SEE US THROUGH.
Together; with our children Kayla (9yrs) and Josiah (2yrs). WE STAND FIRM ON THE PROMISES OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR. WE know that HE IS MORE THAN ABLE TO PERFORM A MIRACLE AND THAT ELIJAH CAN BE MADE WHOLE.
Nonetheless, we accept HIS perfect will and plan for our lives including what the outcome of “OUR MIRACLE” will be. Should Our Sovereign Lord Choose to take him home, WE KNOW THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE GLORIFIED EVEN IN THROUGH THIS STORM.
Please keep us in your prayers. DAILY!
Pray for Kayla to be able to experience the peace of God in her heart even as she goes back and forth to her mother’s home and will be away from us for periods of time. That her faith not be shaken but rather strengthened in Christ. That His Holy Spirit BE EVER PRESENT EVERY MINUTE OF HER DAYS even as questions may arise that she can feel his overwhelming peace that surpasses all understanding.
For Josiah pray that the Holy Spirit bathe him in His perfect peace. As he is much too young to know what is happening WE are certain that he can sense the tension of what we have been going through these past few days. He needs peace and security.
For Steve and I, pray that our strength will be renewed daily. That our faith in God will not waver, that we never lose hope and that some how the Lord reveal to us his plan for our life.
Pray that we be able to love each other stronger every day, to understand one another and our individual ways of dealing with our emotions and hopes as we trust IN GOD TO DO AS HE SEES FIT. That our unity and bond as a couple, as parents and as individuals will strengthen our relationship with our Savior and with each other.
For Elijah, pray that HE BE MADE WHOLE! Pray that HE be a MIRACLE OF GOD FOR ALL MEN TO SEE THE HAND OF GOD IN HIS LIFE; that the PERFECT will of God be done in our son’s life. Pray that he continue growing strong inside me. That he make it to full term and for a quick delivery. With no complications that would take precious time we want to spend with him when he arrives. We want to have as much time with him as the Lord will allow us. We want to take pictures with him.
We do not know who and or how this will affect our relatives and friends and or people we come in contact with on a daily basis. We ask that you let us know that you are with us. Whenever you feel an urge to pray for us please do so or to call or write to tell us you are praying for us. The word of the Lord says to bear one another’s burdens… WE WILL NEED TO BE REMINDED WE ARE SURROUNDED IN LOVE AND IN PRAYERS.
WE just pray that Gods Perfect Peace rule in our home. That our attitude daily will be to worship Him because HE is our refuge and strength. HE has promised us that HE would never leave us nor forsake us; to be with us always.
I am so grateful to God for the strength God has given Steve. The amount of faith he has been able to share with me as he leads our family through this. He has been able to speak words of encouragement to Kayla & I. Reminding us we do not lose hope for our hope is in Christ not in what man says. HE said “GOD HAS THE FINAL SAY”.
I am thankful for our church and Pastoral staff and teachers who have shared with us the word of Christ. The teachings we have received through out our walk with the Lord especially these last two years as the word of God has been planted in our hearts, which has prepared us for the season at hand.
When we told Kayla, immediately tears filled her beautiful blue eyes as she looked up at her daddy and I one of the very first things she said was, “BUT GOD CAN DO A MIRACLE MOM, HE can! I am going to pray and I believe enough that HE can do this!” Steve and I are so glad to see that even our children have a strong relationship with God. WE thank God once more for our church that has helped us in building them up strong in HIS ways!!!
Our prayer is that everyone who read this would come to know that you too can have the peace of God in your life through every trial and test of life, that you would know that you can call upon the name of the Lord and he can come to you in times of trouble. HE knows what you are facing at this very moment in your life and HE has promised never to leave you nor forsake you.
All you have to do if you are facing some type of trail is whisper this prayer of faith : Jesus Christ I believe you are the Son of God. I need you to help me. I am in need of your touch. I believe that you died on a cross to forgive my sins and I ask you at this very moment to come into my heart and be with me daily, that your Holy Spirit will guide me and be with me from this day forward. Amen.
Emails of encouragement & prayers welcomed at stv.mre@gmail.com
WE have chosen to name him:
Elijah Nathaniel Douglas.
Elijah means “God is my strength” and Nathaniel means “God Gave”
Steve and I are certain that GOD will see us through. WE ARE NOT certain how we will feel every day as we go through this but WE ARE CERTAIN that GOD IS WITH US!! HE WILL GIVE US THE STRENGTH AND SEE US THROUGH.
Together; with our children Kayla (9yrs) and Josiah (2yrs). WE STAND FIRM ON THE PROMISES OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR. WE know that HE IS MORE THAN ABLE TO PERFORM A MIRACLE AND THAT ELIJAH CAN BE MADE WHOLE.
Nonetheless, we accept HIS perfect will and plan for our lives including what the outcome of “OUR MIRACLE” will be. Should Our Sovereign Lord Choose to take him home, WE KNOW THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE GLORIFIED EVEN IN THROUGH THIS STORM.
Please keep us in your prayers. DAILY!
Pray for Kayla to be able to experience the peace of God in her heart even as she goes back and forth to her mother’s home and will be away from us for periods of time. That her faith not be shaken but rather strengthened in Christ. That His Holy Spirit BE EVER PRESENT EVERY MINUTE OF HER DAYS even as questions may arise that she can feel his overwhelming peace that surpasses all understanding.
For Josiah pray that the Holy Spirit bathe him in His perfect peace. As he is much too young to know what is happening WE are certain that he can sense the tension of what we have been going through these past few days. He needs peace and security.
For Steve and I, pray that our strength will be renewed daily. That our faith in God will not waver, that we never lose hope and that some how the Lord reveal to us his plan for our life.
Pray that we be able to love each other stronger every day, to understand one another and our individual ways of dealing with our emotions and hopes as we trust IN GOD TO DO AS HE SEES FIT. That our unity and bond as a couple, as parents and as individuals will strengthen our relationship with our Savior and with each other.
For Elijah, pray that HE BE MADE WHOLE! Pray that HE be a MIRACLE OF GOD FOR ALL MEN TO SEE THE HAND OF GOD IN HIS LIFE; that the PERFECT will of God be done in our son’s life. Pray that he continue growing strong inside me. That he make it to full term and for a quick delivery. With no complications that would take precious time we want to spend with him when he arrives. We want to have as much time with him as the Lord will allow us. We want to take pictures with him.
We do not know who and or how this will affect our relatives and friends and or people we come in contact with on a daily basis. We ask that you let us know that you are with us. Whenever you feel an urge to pray for us please do so or to call or write to tell us you are praying for us. The word of the Lord says to bear one another’s burdens… WE WILL NEED TO BE REMINDED WE ARE SURROUNDED IN LOVE AND IN PRAYERS.
WE just pray that Gods Perfect Peace rule in our home. That our attitude daily will be to worship Him because HE is our refuge and strength. HE has promised us that HE would never leave us nor forsake us; to be with us always.
I am so grateful to God for the strength God has given Steve. The amount of faith he has been able to share with me as he leads our family through this. He has been able to speak words of encouragement to Kayla & I. Reminding us we do not lose hope for our hope is in Christ not in what man says. HE said “GOD HAS THE FINAL SAY”.
I am thankful for our church and Pastoral staff and teachers who have shared with us the word of Christ. The teachings we have received through out our walk with the Lord especially these last two years as the word of God has been planted in our hearts, which has prepared us for the season at hand.
When we told Kayla, immediately tears filled her beautiful blue eyes as she looked up at her daddy and I one of the very first things she said was, “BUT GOD CAN DO A MIRACLE MOM, HE can! I am going to pray and I believe enough that HE can do this!” Steve and I are so glad to see that even our children have a strong relationship with God. WE thank God once more for our church that has helped us in building them up strong in HIS ways!!!
Our prayer is that everyone who read this would come to know that you too can have the peace of God in your life through every trial and test of life, that you would know that you can call upon the name of the Lord and he can come to you in times of trouble. HE knows what you are facing at this very moment in your life and HE has promised never to leave you nor forsake you.
All you have to do if you are facing some type of trail is whisper this prayer of faith : Jesus Christ I believe you are the Son of God. I need you to help me. I am in need of your touch. I believe that you died on a cross to forgive my sins and I ask you at this very moment to come into my heart and be with me daily, that your Holy Spirit will guide me and be with me from this day forward. Amen.
Emails of encouragement & prayers welcomed at stv.mre@gmail.com
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